I started a study by Elizabeth George this week called "A Woman After God's Own Heart" and the first chapter has been about our total focus being God. Today we discussed the story of Mary and Martha. That is one that I can never read too many times. I am reminded each time I read it to be more like Mary. I miss those days of non-interruption quiet times.
I sat down this morning to start my study while Aaron was asleep and Daniel was playing on the floor. I was at a very great part and I hear my baby Aaron crying. I thought Lord, how can I have quiet times and them be real quiet times? I go to check on him and get him back to sleep in about 10 minutes. I sit back down at the table and begin again. Then, Daniel comes running to me wanting something that I cannot recall,but to him it was very important! So I get whatever it is and go back to the table. By this time my concentration is pretty broken. I finished it finally and just had lots of thoughts racing. So here they go...
See I used to struggle with how much time I had to spend with God. Now, when you don't have children or other things to do then you can spend as much time with Him as you want. I know because I used to be able to do it,but now things have changed. I struggled a lot with it too. I felt as if I wasn't a good Christian because I could not spend a certain amount of time reading my Bible and praying without distraction or interruption. I thought how horrible God must think of me,I barely have time to just sit alone. Then, I thought I can't spend more than 10 minutes quietly with Him, He must really be disappointed in me. Thank God He has been showing me the past 2 years that isn't the case at all. He started revealing to me after I had Daniel that I was serving Him by taking care of my children and husband. He showed me that by doing this I am spending time with Him. I am doing something that never can be done again,raising and rearing our children for His glory and His purpose! I am learning that as long as I attempt to have quiet time with no interruption that He is pleased. It would be different if I was being idle with my time and not doing anything but sitting around or gallivanting around town. But I am not, I am literally imparting into these precious boys values,morals,and His Word. I am His servant and for now I am serving this little ones. I will always serve them in many ways,but right now they are so young they need me so much! Aaron can't do anything on his own and Daniel can do more,but still. What does it hurt to stop what I am doing,even if it is reading a study, to do something that they need? I am striving to be like Mary,to sit at his feet and get that which cannot be taken away and I know God will honor me.
Don't let the enemy lie to you. Serving is like Christ. When we serve our family first and others, we are in essence serving our Lord.
38Now it came to pass, as they went, that he entered into a certain village: and a certain woman named Martha received him into her house.
39And she had a sister called Mary, which also sat at Jesus' feet, and heard his word.
40But Martha was cumbered about much serving, and came to him, and said, Lord, dost thou not care that my sister hath left me to serve alone? bid her therefore that she help me.
41And Jesus answered and said unto her, Martha, Martha, thou art careful and troubled about many things:
42But one thing is needful: and Mary hath chosen that good part, which shall not be taken away from her.