Today is my birthday. Sometimes I forget how old I am,anyone with me? It's hard to believe that I am 31 today. Thirty years ago today I came into this world. I am happy that God has given me thirty years on this earth,but I am a bit sad too. I am growing up and I finally feel like an adult. No one ever told me that growing up meant you were growing old. I always longed for the day that I felt like an adult,well it's here.
God has been more than good to me my time here on earth so far. He is a faithful God. He protected me through some dangerous times and has brought me this far. I am blessed with an awesome husband and 3 wonderful little boys. I'm healthy and I am happy. I never thought I would be where I am today,but I am very thankful that I am.
Looking back I had no clue what God had planned for my life,but I thought I did. I thought I knew who I would marry. I thought I knew where I would be living. I thought I knew what I would be spending my days doing. I thought I would marry such and such. I thought I would be living in some foreign land (Honduras particularly). I thought I would be doing mission work. Wow. Was I wrong or what? Aren't you glad we serve a mighty God? He is all knowing and He has best in store for us. He knew before I was born on February 20,1983 what I would be doing everyday of my life. It's wild to think He knows what each one of us will do each day we wake up. It is so comforting too.
I don't have what I thought I would have 10 years ago,but I am so glad that I let God lead my life. It was hard at times. I rebelled many times and did things my way. I went with my feelings instead of the peace of God,yet He was merciful to me. He some how kept me from making a lot of horrible mistakes that would alter where I am today. There is no doubt in my mind that I am right in the middle of God's will,what He desires for me. Oh what sweet victory! God has been giving me some desires of my heart since this year began. It's so amazing and I am so unworthy of it all. I began writing with a devotional site online, Laced With Grace. I will also be venturing out and writing for another site,a ministry reaching out to wives, called The Imperfect Wives. I would have never dreamed I would be doing this. I feel the most weak in my life right now. But that is what God wants. He wants to use me when I am weak,so He can be strong through me.
At times, I do long for the foreign mission field. I would be lying if I said that I did not desire to do that someday. God had a whole lot of work to still do in me. I have been through some stuff the last 10 years that has shaped me and molded me. My husband and I have been through hard times (not necessarily with one another) and God has really shown His might. He is a good God. He is a faithful God. He is a Mighty God. I am so glad that He is my God.
I look forward to the next year of my life and what God has in store for me and for my family. I have some things on my heart and some things I want to do. I am just trusting God to bring it to fruition. He is a God of purpose.
How do you celebrate your birthday? Do you reflect back on your life much?